Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Adoption. . . .the long and winding road

This summer we went to visit social services to find out information about adoption. We had an interesting meeting with the social worker, who gave us an application packet and a list of stuff to gather.

Two months later (and a ton of time talking about, "What exactly was your happiest/saddest childhood memory? " What was the happiest/saddest moment in our marriage?" "How much are we willing to deal with in the way of physical/mental/emotional/behavioral disabilities? What ages are we willing to accept?? It's not a little like going shopping at a clothing store (not to be offensive, but. . .) There are so many things to decide, so many decisions to make. It can be a bit overwhelming. Do you listen to your heart or to your head? Do you totally sacrifice who you are and have been together for 19 years to become someone totally different? And how does that even work? We've been together. . . alone. . . .19 years. . . .how that will change is not even capable of being put into words!!!!!!!!!! Scared? yes. . . .Excited? Definitely. . . .Nervous? More than I can say . . . . Overwhelmed? Most assuredly. Committed? 100%! Still scared? Uh-huh!!

So Friday we meet the social worker again. And the next step after that is the home visit. Now the panic really begins. . . .we have much to do and time is of the essence -- please pray that we can get enough done that she can see that we can make a wonderful home for some children, and then to give us the wisdom to choose rightly for our sake and the children's sake!

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